Well what can I say, after a very short hiatus, I'm here again to write another pointless blog. In fact, I might make this a Monday, Thursday, Saturday blog.
I've done a lot of thinking recently, and sometimes I think that I don't deserve anything. Or maybe I deserve more than I think. I barely get any respect or responsibility, because clearly people think I'm incapable. And maybe I am, but I don't know that if I don't get asked to do things. How can I grab opportunities if none ever come my way? I just wish people would rely on me a bit more, I like being involved in things. Too often have I made an effort to recieve nothing in return, so maybe I should just not bother? I just wish someone would make an effort with me, obviously noone wants to, and I can see why. I'm insecure, have self esteem issues, incredibly shy. But I didn't get to being this way through choice, who would want to? My shyness had a lot to do with it though, difficulty talking to new people, girls I liked in particular, which has led me to being single for a very long time. I guess being sat behind a computer for the better part of the day doesn't help either.
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